There is a hole in my head spilling these thoughts on to my paper
The pool below me is rising becoming big enough to swim in
These thoughts are devouring me tearing at me, wearing me down
I'm dying to have you
I fighting against you
Clenching you, smelling you
No I cannot consume you
I set you down only to pick you up again
Dismissing you for an instant
Constantly in flux with my decision to leave you
I do not need you
Yes
No I hate you
I love you
My chest constricting and weak, my hands trembling
My whole body is screaming for you
But I do not want you
